I am such a mess. I am getting so distraught because I am not getting to see my boyfriend this weekend. We’ll if it helps I go to school two an a half hours away from where we live so I only get to see him on the weekends. But I can’t go home because I don’t have the money for gas and my parents suck. They won’t help me any and I am going on what money i make from my work study. (Which isn’t much) I have to pay for groceries electric bill and my gas which uses a full tank when I go home. But the thing is I really don’t want to go home. It’s my dad’s weekend and I hate it. I dot like going to his house or it’s really someone else’s. He says with his best friend because he just got a divorce and doesn’t have the money for a house. Or I say that I dot know where his money really goes. Not like he has any bills or anything. But the reason I don’t want to go over there is because I can’t shower and I typically sleep on an air mattress with my little brother and sister or on a love seat. It’s sob uncomfortable and I hate it. I feel bad for leaving the other three to deal with it, but there is nothing I can do for them. And to throw a little information about my dad, he just got his taxes back and instead of getting a house or furniture e bought the entire family dirt bikes and riding gear. All except for me. I got a hundred dollar bill. Why am I complaining? Because he hasn’t given me gas money since and I am outbid money. I have used all my savings paying for gas, but I can’t do that anymore. I don’t know what to do Brian can’t come up here because he claims he doesn’t have the money and I am falling apart at the seams. All’s well that ends well I guess.